Bipolar - what is it? Definition, meaning, translation

Oksimiron

jet lag .
Shove it up your ass badge and questions, Sherlock.

reel current





flow plastid.
Seems like a pop artist, but still an MC. Big boss, CEO, who feeds the team.
Good son, one of the best, the same guy, Oxford graduate, no one cares.
You are above the abyss in the rye, above the abyss of the rye.
On Crawley's arm is the motto "God Forgives."
M.C. they are friends against each other, circling, wandering, already dancing in circles around my carcass.
But I’m a living corpse, my flesh is choking me, and if you stab me, I’ll tear my stomach.
So, let's sing a gypsy song. It became unclear what, there was a schoolboy with glasses. But I’m not sad, I don’t care.
After all, my bipolar loves me.

(emphasis on “I”) is not only the title of a new song Oksimiron. This is an affectionate derivative of “bipolar affective disorder” - a mental illness that is characterized by sharp changes in mood phases: from euphoria to complete depression and back. For example, the famous artist Van Gogh suffered from this disease.

The word “bipolar” itself consists of the Greek “bi” (two) and “pole”, which seems to hint at the sharp contrast of states in which a patient suffering from bipolar resides. Oksimiron himself, apparently, is also to some extent prone to bipolar disorders: sometimes he has “the city under his sole,” and sometimes “who have you become.”

And here are the lyrics of the track “Bipolar”:

Again the brains are being eaten by the press, chills and jet lag .
Shove it up your ass badge and questions, Sherlock.
We give rap a part of ourselves, like??? we mow the cache without wiping the tears from the tombstones, the year is written.
We ask in vain, give us all here not just an overnight stay, but that the nomad is waiting so much, the light of a tavern will flicker.
We are the ones who sacrifice everything to the onlookers here.
Those who carry a ring around their neck and throw it into the mouth.
What in return, my friend, what in return?
What, people's love is bitter bread? Banter at the evening show?
When you are poor, you expect these dreams from a big check.
But where do you go when the check doesn’t save you like medicinal juice?

Oks, what are you on? You have everything you could ever dream of, underground rapper.
You have risen from the rabble, instead of calmly rejoicing in your take-off, again a deplorable text.
Stop, just check, the way we live with you, probably no one at all lives like that.
Our alcohol is cheaper than a textbook.
So if you whine, you suck like Chandler.
This is more than you, more than your soul-searching worthless clown, man, and
Remember, you and I walked in step for a hundred years, side by side for a hundred years we walked along the road to our dreams.
From the depot to the final station, rather than lay low for another couple of years, it was better to move away from this crap.
Listen, Jew, you are not eternal.
Come on, pull yourself together, why are you so gentle?
The truth is yours, but you drew your own conclusions from it too early, boys.
In a year and a half, I lost myself, friends: two are dead, the third is in intensive care.
Every step I take is under a microscope and reel current, if you make a mistake at least once - that’s it!
I waited a year to give up the throne. Monomakh's hat is heavy, I'm tired, I'm fucking everyone!
Age... When you start, everything is simple. You catch everything out of thin air and bully adults.
Remember, my house was a drifting island? The only assets are the future and air.
Nothing to write, Oxy. Grow your hair. After three years in the media, I went completely bald.
And I would like to leave, but scraps of honor and conscience prevent me from letting my friends down.
And from the oral cavity we need a new verse and so that

Bipolar- Oksimiron’s song, which he released in September 2017 after a year and a half break. Immediately after this, the shortened name for bipolar disorder became fashionable among teenagers listening to the rapper, and formed a small subculture around them.

Origin

Rapper Oxxxymiron September 14, 2017 released new track “Bipolarochka”. He tweeted that he recorded and mixed it in one night.

Since 2015, when the album “Gorgorod” was released, Oksimiron has not had new songs. In “Bipolar” we're talking about about the life of a rapper, problems with press attention, fatigue and the death of friends. In addition, the text contains a hint of a battle with Slava CPSU, to whom Oksimiron lost with a score of 5:0 in August.

Lyrics of the song “Bipolar”

Abs, chills and jetlag are fucking my brains out again
Stick your badge and questions up your ass, Sherlock
We give rap a part of ourselves, like Tosin djent
We mow down the cache without wiping away our tears, the year is inscribed on the tombstone

We ask in vain: give us all here more than just an overnight stay
And like a nomad, the tavern light is waiting to blink
We are the ones who sacrifice everything to the onlookers here.
Those who carry a ring around their neck and throw it into the mouth

What in return? My friend, what in return?
What is the bitter bread of people's love - banter at the evening show
When you're poor you expect all the dreams from a big check, but
Where do you go when the check doesn’t save you like medicinal juice?

“Ox, what are you on?
You have everything an underground rapper could dream of
You grew up from the rabble, instead of calmly enjoying the ups -
Again a deplorable text, check how we live,
Probably no one lives like this with you
Our alcohol is cheaper than a textbook.
So if you whine you suck like Chandler

It's bigger than you, bigger than
Your self-examination of a worthless clown,
Man, remember, you and I have been walking in step for a hundred years
Side by side for a hundred years we walked along the road to our dreams
From the depot to the final station. How to lie low
For a couple more years, it’s better to move away from this crap.
“Listen, Jew, you’re not going to last forever.
Come on, get your act together! Why are you so gentle?”

The truth is yours, but you seem
It’s too early to draw conclusions from it, guys,
I lost myself in a year and a half.
Friends: two are dead, the third is in intensive care.

Every step I take is under a microscope
And real talk, if I made a mistake at least once, that’s it
I waited a year to give up the throne
Monomakh's hat is heavy, I'm tired of fucking everyone in the mouth

The age when you start and that’s just it,
You catch it out of thin air and bully adults.
Do you remember? My home was a drifting island
Of property only the future and air?

Nothing to write - “Oxy, grow your hair”
I've gone completely bald in three years in the media.
And I would like to leave, but I’m letting my friends down
They don’t give you scraps of honor and conscience

And from the oral cavity
We need a new verse and flow plastid
Seems like a pop artist, but still an MC
Big boss, CEO, who feeds the team

Good son, he’s the same guy on the board
Oxford graduate, no one cares
You are over the abyss in the rye, over the abyss in the rye
On Crowley's hand is the motto, God Forgives.

MCs are friends against each other, circling and wandering
There are already round dances around my carcass
But I, a living corpse, am choked by flesh
And if you stab me, I’ll tear my tummy

So sing the gypsy song
It became unclear what, there was a schoolboy with glasses
But I'm not fucking sad, I don't care
Because my bipolar girl loves me

Oksimiron's fans enthusiastically accepted the song. A day later, the word “Bipolarochka” flooded Russian-language Twitter, and dozens of people even changed the names of their accounts to this word. And although not all fans fully understand the severity of the disease, many of them began to apply quotes from “Bipolar” to their teenage suffering.

Quite quickly it became a fashionable word, and, like everything fashionable, this phenomenon had its haters. Those who are familiar with the manifestations of real bipolar first-hand are indignant about this.

We can say that the passion for the song has already short term form a small subculture. Already now, the dominance of similar posts a la “my bipolar girl loves me” is reminiscent of the era of “vanilla” or emo. Oksimiron’s fans are actively looking for signs of bipolar disorder in order to somehow be closer to their idol.

Meaning

The word “bipolar” is an abbreviation for “bipolar affective disorder,” which is also called manic-depressive disorder. In people with this disease, mania alternates with depression, and periods of mental health are sometimes observed. To treat the disorder, you need to take a significant number of medications.

Oksimiron was diagnosed with bipolar disorder while he was studying at Oxford. During his illness, he was expelled from the university, but recovered and graduated from the university.

After the release of the track, “bipolar” began to symbolize any blues and depression, although these are different concepts. In some cases, you can also find the transfer of words to inanimate objects.

Gallery

In a battle with Dizaster in Los Angeles. The rap battle went without judges, but Disaster said that his opponent was the winner: “He won, as always. He held his own in the first battle in English against the best battle rapper in the world."

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Oksimiron also became a guest on Eminem’s Shade 54 radio and gave an interview project VladTV, the founder of which is Vladimir Lyubovny (Dj Vlad). Miron spoke about his life in Europe, creativity and study in England. “I was born in St. Petersburg. My father is a physicist, and our family moved often because of his work. We came to Germany when I was nine. Then to England. There I graduated from school and entered Oxford,” the rapper shared. He became a graduate of the faculty in English and literature at one of the most prestigious universities in the world thanks to his schoolteacher. It was she who suggested that Miron submit documents, and he passed the exams.

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Miron has been interested in hip-hop since he was 13 years old, and that’s when he started writing lyrics. “Music has completely changed my life. For several years after university I was unemployed, just writing and releasing tracks. At some point, everything worked out,” Oksimiron said.

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As it turned out, the popular rapper suffered from bipolar disorder, but is still not sure how accurate the doctors diagnosed him: “I have always struggled with something like extreme mood swings. Doctors told me about manic depression, then the name of the diagnosis changed. I was prescribed medications, but I never took them.”

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Chords. Whole song chords: G#m C#m. Comfortable tonality: +1

[Verse 1, Oxxxymiron]:
Again, brain-fuck abs, chills and jetlag.
Stick your badge and questions up your ass, Sherlock!
We give rap a part of ourselves, like Tosin gives a djent.
We mow down the cache without wiping away our tears; The year is inscribed on the tombstone.

We ask in vain: “Give us all here more than just an overnight stay!”
And that the nomad is waiting for this, the light of the tavern will blink.
We are the ones who sacrifice everything to the onlookers here -
Those who carry a ring around their neck and throw it into the mouth.

What in return? My friend, what in return? What?
People's love - bitter bread, banter on the "Evening" show?
When you're poor, you expect all the dreams from a big check, but
Where do you go when the check doesn’t save you like medicinal juice?

[Verse 2, Oxxxymiron]:
Oks, what are you on? You have everything -
What an underground rapper could only dream of.
You grew up from the rabble, instead of calmly
Rejoicing in takeoffs is again a deplorable text.

Check out how we live -
Probably no one lives like this with you,
And here alcohol is cheaper than a textbook -
So if you whine, you suck like Chandler.

It's bigger than you! More than
Your self-examination of a worthless clown.
Man, remember, you and I have been walking in step for a hundred years,
Side by side for a hundred years we walked along the road to our dream from the DEPOT to the final one.

Why lie low for another couple of years -
Better move away from this crap.
Listen, Jew, you’re not going to last forever.
Come on, get yourself together! Why are you so gentle?

[Verse 3, Oxxxymiron]:
Your truth, but I think it’s too early
You guys drew your own conclusions from it.
I lost myself in a year and a half;
Two friends are dead, the third is in intensive care.

Every step I take is under a microscope.
And real talk, if you make a mistake at least once - that’s it
I waited a year to give up the throne.
Monomakh's hat is heavy.
I'm tired of fucking everyone in the mouth!

The age when you start, everything is simple;
You catch everything out of thin air and bully adults.
Remember, my home was a drifting island; -
Of property only the future and air?

There is no point in writing: “Oxy, grow your hair!” -
After three years in the media, I went completely bald.
And I would like to leave, but I’m letting my friends down
They don’t give you scraps of honor and conscience.

[Verse 4, Oxxxymiron]:
And from the oral cavity it would be necessary
New verse and let the flow be plastid!
Seems like a pop artist, but still an MC
Big Boss C.E.O., who feeds the team.

Good son, his name is the same type,
Oxford graduate - no one gives a fuck.
You are above the abyss in the rye, above the abyss of the rye.
The motto on Crowley's arm is "God forgives."

MCs are friendly against; circling, wandering -
They are already dancing around my carcass.
But I am a living corpse, my flesh is strangling me,
And if you stab me, I’ll tear my tummy.

Like Leisya, song, gypsy girl.
It became unclear what, there was a schoolboy with glasses;
But I’m not sad, nigga, I don’t give a damn -
After all, my bipolar loves me.

About the song Oxxxymiron - Bipolar

• After a year and a half of waiting (or, to be precise, 511 days according to Levon Saribekyan’s website), Oksimiron releases the single “Bipolarochka”. Quote: “I haven’t released anything for so long that I forgot how and where to upload it - so I’m counting on folk craftsmen!” The work was written and recorded on the night of September 13th to September 14th, 2017 at the BluntCath production company, which rapper GUF “rinsed” in his track To Clean in August. The song was recorded and mixed by London beatmaker, MC and singer of Portuguese origin Porchi (real name Dario Vieira).

  It is worth noting that the composition is quite depressing in nature (some admirers of Miron’s work compared the content no less than Confession). The very name “Bipolar” means manic-depressive psychosis, which is what Oxxxymiron actually talks about, remembering all the events that happened to him over the past Lately. The text also makes reference to the death of one of the group leaders

Bipolar personality disorder (manic-depressive psychosis) – mental disorder, characterized by frequent mood swings and energy swings. One of the main signs of the disease, in addition to problems with social adaptation, loss of sense of time and increased tendency to suicide - an alternating combination of the phases of “mania” and “depression”. Symptoms of mania include euphoria, increased performance, insomnia, speech pressure, and an excessive sense of self-importance. Depression is expressed in sadness, loss of interest in others, a pessimistic view of the future and obsessive thoughts.

How does the excerpt describing mental illness relate to rap? Direct, because this is a description of the diagnosis of Oxford University student Miron Fedorov, the future performer of MC Oksimiron.

I knew my diagnosis in advance - spontaneous combustion.
The doctor said: “Manic depression!

In the song “Spontaneous Combustion” from the album “The Eternal Jew” in 2008, Oxy already addressed the topic of his illness, which, however, never stopped him from performing and “raising rap from his knees”: numerous tracks, rap battles, new albums, performances . In a series of new events and headlines, the rapper’s listeners’ memory of his mental disorder was erased from memory, so the track “Bipolar”, published on September 14, became a revelation for many fans...

We ask in vain: give us all here more than just an overnight stay (not sleepy vegetation in routine, but something more, spiritual, being with meaning, ed.)
And the nomad is waiting for the light of the tavern to blink
We are the ones who sacrifice everything to the onlookers here.

You start listening - and the thought flashes through your head that the performer’s voice seems to be similar to Oxy, but sounds different: there is no longer the energy and charge that we are used to hearing in all tracks, regardless of the “filling”. The patient's suppressed voice, as if after a dose of strong narcotic substances. Obviously, this is the notorious “depressive phase”. “Chills and jet lag” – loss of temporary sensation, as when changing time zones. The thought of a “gravestone” on which the year of death is already inscribed. Complaints about the difficult life of the “conqueror” of Russian rap, who, like the hero of “The Lord of the Rings,” throws the “ring of omnipotence” into the mouth of a volcano.

“What in return?” Myron asks himself. What is it for? What kind of payoff does our hero get for “sacrificing everything”? Oksimiron never sought fame in the primitive sense of the word, always condemning those (like ST) who participate in battles in order to advertise their albums and increase concert attendance (“But I’m not trying to outdo my opponent, but my own achievements from the past battle"); That’s why it turns out to be offensive - in the course of self-analysis - both his own desire to earn money, to break out from the bottom, and his performance on the show “Evening Urgant” on Channel One (isn’t it for PR?).

Part two: Self-examination of the unfortunate clown

Oks, what are you on?
You have everything you could ever dream of, underground rap player,
You grew up from the rabble, instead of calmly enjoying the ups -
Again a deplorable text.

In the second part of the track the rhythm speeds up. Oxy moves from a “slow flow” to a quick reading and assessment of his persona by the listener. “What would a fan from the province say if he heard all this?” — Myron seems to be asking himself. Why these complaints? Yes, he has everything, he has achieved the very heights of Russian rap: money, wealth, fame; his tracks are memorized, battles with his participation gain record views. You can relax and have fun, but here – “deplorable text”. Does he understand that the way his surroundings live - whether in St. Petersburg or Moscow - is the dream of all residents of the regions? Poor cities and villages, literally surviving on miserable wages and pensions. Drunkenness and drug addiction. Pseudo-social state. “Our alcohol is cheaper than a textbook.” Yes, if Oxy continues his whining after this, then he is not the “king of Russian rap”, but simply a “sucker like Chandler” - an insecure and weak-willed character from the American TV series “Friends”, hiding his insignificant nature behind sarcastic humor.

Part three: “I waited a year to give up the throne”

Here Oksimiron again “takes the floor” and refutes his own words. “Yes, okay, they may be right, but don’t rush,” “the boys drew conclusions too early.” Besides happy life overflowing with vivid emotions, successful performances, there is also a negative: problems with objective self-esteem, loss of the original mood against the backdrop of the death of friends and a girlfriend - in intensive care. Here it is, a tweet from the account on September 9:

I didn't disappear, guys. It’s just that a big misfortune happened to a loved one, compared to which everything else is such nonsense. But I'm here.

Nerves. Constant mood swings. Fear of making a mistake and losing the faith of fans when “your every step is under a microscope.” Let us recall again the lines of the battle with ST - this is quite appropriate, since, as I already noted, Oksimiron uses battles exclusively to express his thoughts and ideas, simultaneously voicing fears and doubts:

But the defeat from the Glory of the CPSU and the “given throne” - now we understand this from the words of Miron himself - gave some relief, removed the burden of responsibility, first of all, to himself. In the end, everyone gets tired of “fucking everyone in the mouth.”

Here Oxy makes a reference to his past - the distant shores of Foggy Albion, the “drifting island”, where there was nothing to lose, because it was impossible to find a job in England as a philologist - even an Oxford graduate. Hence the relaxation, simplicity, lightness: “You catch it out of thin air, you bully adults.” And immediately back to today: pressure from the crowd, an internal desire to give up everything, a frankly inflated sense of responsibility (“still MC, Big Boss,” CEO - boss, chief executive officer).

Oxford graduate, no one cares
You are above the abyss in the rye, above the abyss of the rye.

Oksimiron feels like a sort of Holden Kielfield, the hero of J. Salinger's novel "". Thinking about his future and choice of profession, the teenager admits that he would like to catch small children playing in the rye in the evening on the edge of a huge abyss so that they do not fall down. However, throughout the entire novel, Holden himself hangs over the abyss, because he is in an unequal confrontation with the outside world and its hypocritical values. So Oxy - as an “eternal teenager”, the only “adult” among the “small” MCs - extols his uniqueness and exclusivity and at the same time admits that he has never found any other use for himself in life. The lines of the track “Ivory Tower” immediately come to mind:

After all, they twisted it into a knot the mighty of the world this.
So much so that stress, boiling, running, Quidditch.
I used to think that thirty was the end.
But I'm here, see?

Part four: “My bipolar”

The ending of the song again testifies to Oksimiron’s nervousness, which is degenerating into a kind of “persecution mania”: “MC are friends against each other, circling and wandering. They’re already dancing around my carcass,” as if every rapper was waiting for his “sunset.” This inner feeling; It is impossible to say from the outside how justified this is. It is curious that Myron continues the idea that he is the same living person and also feels pain like everyone else, through the oxymoron - “a living corpse.”

In the last verse, the performer concludes that he – in a global sense – “doesn’t give a damn about anyone”, again focusing on the fact that “he was a schoolboy with glasses”, but became a cool rapper. Entering mania again?

If you evaluate the entire track as a whole and ask yourself: “How will it influence further creativity?”, then after some thought the answer comes: “Basically, not at all.” “Bipolar” is unlikely to be performed at a concert: it is impossible to deliberately introduce yourself into something like this depressive state. Even with a real diagnosis.

Oxxymiron spoke about painful issues. “I went crazy.” Calmed down. And he continued to write tracks and prepare for the first international, Russian-American rap battle with MC Dizaster.

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